Dear reader, Someone recently asked me how I ended up where I am now. I stumbled through the here’s and there’s of the last seven years, and they responded with it sounds like you were searching for something. Ordinarily, this kind of comment would embarrass me. The admission of trying to find something, of trying … Continue reading Newsletter: searching for something
A Lizard’s Song (written by Sarah Bennett) I was walking home from the shops, a single bag tucked under my arm. I want to say it was filled with celery and carrots, greenery poking out the top, but I had only purchased eyeliner from the pharmacy and a cheap bottle of wine. The sun came … Continue reading A Lizard’s Song / Poem
I’m in a new space. One where I am the furthest away from what I thought my future would be, but closest to the one that will eventualise. It’s a funny feeling. This isn’t what I would have chosen for myself, but most things become normal very quickly. Of course there are moments when I … Continue reading What Comes Next
I’m sitting here with eggs on toast and a blanket on my lap. The days have been sunny and warm compared to the early mornings, but sometimes it’s nice to feel cosy. I finished sewing my Christmas blanket, which is very exciting! It’s ready in time to use as winter creeps in, and I’m so … Continue reading Femininity: Authenticity in Health
Dear friend, I used to think my relationship with God was like a train on a track. I would gain speed, then stop, over and over. Only some sort of dramatic prayer would let me go on again, as though I had to find special words to allow me to continue. I used to think … Continue reading Newsletter: the ongoing trek
In January I wrote this post and mentioned I thought I was going through a spiritual wilderness. Sometime last year (probably around October when I lost my job during a lockdown), I began to feel lost and while I was reading my Bible and praying as normal, it felt like God was not close to … Continue reading My Spiritual Wilderness
At the beginning of last year, I wrote that I wanted 2021 to be good. After what it turned out to be, I don’t know that I have the energy to ask for that again. Not that I want to dismiss the entire year as bad, because it wasn’t (there were some wonderful aspects), but … Continue reading Hope in the New Year
Heaven (written by Sarah Bennett) If I give my life to You, Do with it what You will. Only save my brothers and sisters, Open up the gates of Heaven. Take everything good I have, Take everything from me I love. Only save the ones close to my heart, Open up the gates of Heaven. … Continue reading Heaven / Poem
Someone recently told me that I’m good at conclusions, or something like that. I’m good at concluding things. I wouldn’t disagree, but I think sometimes I go too far in cutting things off before their time, for the sake of moving on. Whenever I go away on holidays, the last morning is always wobbly. Knowing … Continue reading Conclusions and Closure
2021 is the year of focusing on my health. Which, when put like that, sounds kind of boring. But honestly, I’m excited. I wouldn’t say I’ve ever neglected my wellbeing, unless you consider neglect to be convincing my mum that a dentist appointment doesn’t have to be every six months. But it hasn’t been much … Continue reading My Focus of 2021
the softest words 