That Time Again

I started the year in one house, one job, one church, and I’m ending the year with new ones. My last day at my old job was the Friday before Christmas, and I begin the new next week. I feel mostly ready, but of course there are always the nerves at what is unknown. But change becomes normal very quickly.

When I first moved to this area two and a half years ago, I craved permanency. I wanted to settle in and just be somewhere, long-term. To be able to properly invest, commit, and to know I would be there for a set amount of time.

I have learnt that life does not guarantee such things. You can try, of course, and we can have long seasons in one house, one job, one church. For many around me, they will be in the one marriage for the rest of their lives. But many things in our lives are open to change, even when we do not ask for it.

I have said it before, that up until this point many things happened in my life that I did not plan for. It felt like I was constantly reacting rather than initiating, and just getting over the next hurdle.

I think that is why it felt monumental to resign from this recent job I have had for just over two years. While there are others who have been with that company far longer than I (fifteen, twenty years!), it was a decision I made that was not based on external circumstances changing around me.

I didn’t leave at the first sign of things going downhill; I’m a firm believer in sticking out difficult situations if it is where God wants you, and I didn’t want to leave if it was where God needed me. But I’m confident in the change happening now; I’m sure of this timing. God has opened a door, and I am ready to walk through it.

I feel positive about what’s ahead of me. With each year, and with each change, there comes a deeper peace in knowing that God has everything in control. I don’t need to know where I end up, or how I get there, because He knows.

I love New Year’s reflections. Asking myself those deeper questions about what has taken place and what I’m looking to in the future. I’m excited to sit with these sentiments once more, and let myself hear God through it all. I come into the new year with a loose grip, knowing that God has plans I know nothing of. Not yet. But they will come to fruition, and I will willingly submit to what He has for me. There is beauty in obeying Him, and I look forward to finding it.

Sarah xx